cytherea the first will drive me absolutely fucking bonkers if i let her. like, she knows that the cavalier system is fucked up. she knows that. but she's so willing to participate in it. she cradles gideon's head and pets her hair and tells her how awful it is that harrow is taking advantage of her, meanwile, they're performing a trial that cytherea asked them to do.
all of her compliments for gideon feed into the cavalier dynamic. gideon is strong, useful, helpful, marvelous, a thing apart, and cytherea wonders if harrow even knows what she has in her. she is never anything self-contained. she is a damn good cavalier, and even when cytherea pities her, even when she aches for her, even when she's angry on her behalf, she can never seem to find anything else to say about her.
and, see, the problem with cytherea is that she views herself that way, too. even knowing how toxic and unfair it is, ten thousand years can form a hell of a habit. she says herself, "i am a necromancer and i am a cavalier," and something about the way she interacts with john and the others tells me she's not just talking about loveday.
john says it himself. cytherea was the best of them. the kindest, the most willing, the most humane, overworked and underloved, and none of them noticed. the man she served and loved and worshipped as a god for ten thousand years didn't even notice that he was wearing her into the ground until it was too late to stop. and would he have stopped? i doubt it.
cytherea was sick. she was genuinely exhausted and physically weak and in pain all the time, forever, constantly, and that's how they talk about her. so yeah, no wonder she had a warped view of personal value and duty. that's how she was treated for ten thousand years. that's how she thought of herself. be kind, be helpful, be unbothered, be willing, be pleasant, be useful, be active, be happy, be strong, be strong, be strong.
is it any fucking wonder she snapped?
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[Its claws screeched through the metal flooring, throwing up sparks that singed its skin. A brief tongue flick was ALL it needed to get HQs scent.]
"Marco...."
[The word came out as a shriek, a warning, a courtesy call. It waited a few seconds, giving HQ a headstart- It WANTED to CHASE. To make HQ feel what he felt. It was a twisted cycle, wasn't it? Blood for blood, tears for tears, an eye for an eye.]
[And off it went. The leviathan tore through the halls.... A human never could have stood a chance.]
ooc:hiiii hihiihihihhiiiii
The shriek was all HQ needed to get a move on. he thought he had more time, he thought that Sebastian wouldn't actually make it to where he was, he could hear it, the screeching of its claws against the metal flooring as his own boots made a decent thudding as each footfall pushed him forward
He couldn't move fast enough, he couldn't run fast enough, he couldn't open doors fast enough and in his panic -
down went his keycard, dropping from his hand as he nearly attempted to throw it at the next door that was in his way, was he really about to face the end? was this it?
his transgressions had finally caught up to him, his complacency finally biting him in the ass.
He turned, facing his impending doom, facing the harsh reality of what he allowed to happen.
Karma has come for him
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Drunk hc
Yuri investigating Loid (because he wants to find a reason to break him and Yor up) and actually finding legitimate evidence that Loid is lying (because Yuri is actually a competent detective when he’s ready) but debating whether or not to continue out of fear of genuinely hurting Yor.
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Fontcest May Event- What is it?
this is an event during the week of May 5th through May 11th (that's Sunday through Saturday)
there is a couple lists of possible prompts, but you can create whatever you like!
no pressure, just Fontcest, Papcest, and Sanscest fun!
artists and writers alike are welcome to participate, and 18+ and darker content creators are welcome to do their thing!
there's a discord for the event here: https://discord.gg/shbJaJFmWf
if you wanna come hang out and maybe create some cool stuff, feel free ^^
(and if you don't want to join the discord, that's ok too! i'll post the prompts list sometime before the event starts ^^)
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It's actually wild that "derivative" is used as a disparaging term for often small artists, when... almost every artist is derivative to some extent - even the most grandiose of authors, or the person who snatches the world and throws it into his canvas.
Deriving your art from the world you live in is just the name of the game. Now, it is true that you can do this seamlessly, and you can also do it in such a way that is "messy," but I find it odd that people think of deriving your art from a source is inherently negative. We all take inspiration from somewhere. We are not an island.
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